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Fading by E. K. Blair
Series: Fading #1
on June 19, 2013
Genres: Abuse, Contemporary Romance, Dark, Drama, New Adult, Romance, Sociology
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Can a guilty conscience keep wounds from healing?
Fine arts major, Candace Parker, grew up with a mother who thinks image is everything, and her daughter’s perfection will never be good enough. About to graduate college and pursue her dreams of becoming a professional ballerina, Candace decides it’s time to let go and have a little fun. But fun is short-lived when a brutal attack leaves her completely shattered.
The memories that consume and torment Candace are starting to destroy her when she meets Ryan Campbell, a successful bar owner. He feels instantly connected and tries to show her that hope is worth fighting for. But is Ryan harboring his own demons? As walls slowly begin to chip away, the secrets that are held within start to become painful burdens.
At what point do secrets become lies?
(17+) This book contains mature subject matter that is not suitable for those under the age of 17.
This was a very difficult book to read. Mostly because of the subject matter. But also because of the writing style. I desperately wanted to connect to Candace. I wanted my heart to break. I wanted to cry. But I didn’t. When you read what happens to her you’ll want to connect. Instead I felt more of a connection to Jase.
Jase is Candace’s best friend. He’s who she turns to when her world is ripped apart. His pain I felt.
It’s hard to review a book when you can’t get past the way the book is written. The author describes every single action in every single scene. I got home and opened the door. Then I went to the bathroom and I sat on the toilet. Then I got up and flushed the toilet. It got old really really fast and for me it took away from what could have been a great story. I know writing isn’t easy. I don’t write book but I struggle writing reviews and even though it doesn’t compare, I can only imagine what an author goes through. With that said, I think that my disconnect with the characters comes from the author difficulty writing in first person. It’s not easy to do and you become so close with the characters. I don’t even know if I’m explaining this.
So the story itself is a good one. Like I mentioned before, Candace endures something so horrific, I don’t even know how she survived at all. She was already a mixed up person. She has a terrible relationship with her parents. Not being able to be who she wants to be. Her mother is hell bent to get Candace to give up her dream of dancing in order to go to graduate school, get a respectable degree, and marry a man that runs in their social circles. Candace can’t/won’t give up dancing but does try to appease her parents by dating men they introduce her to. When I say date I use that term loosely. She doesn’t really date more than once. Nothing long term as she can’t make herself commit.
Needless, to say she has a slew of issues. I sort of felt like it was all too much for any one person to handle. She has parental issues, she has this horrific thing happen, she’s trying to graduate, she has to do a big dance performance that will either make her or break her. It’s not wonder she cried all the time. Yes Candace bothered me. She did absolutely nothing to help herself. There were no big epiphanies. I wanted a BIG epiphany. I understood the hurt, the fear, the sorrow, the panic attacks, the nightmares. I understood all of that. I just had a hard time believing her. Jase was afraid to push her. She kept secrets from her roommate which leads to the demise of their friendship. Then she meets Ryan.
Ryan has issues himself. But he’s drawn to Candace. I was hoping he would be the one that could break through. But even that took way too long. I loved how he handled her, he was patient and kind. He took a lot of time getting to know her. I was amazed at his perseverance. I found myself wondering what was going on in his head. I knew he had to be struggling. Candace doesn’t open up to him at all. Well not for a long time. Every single time she needed someone to lean on she ran to Jase. I’m surprised that Ryan waited as long as he did before he said anything to her about that relationship.
All in all there was a lot of potential in this book. I’m hopeful that book 2 will resolve some of the writing issues. I look forward to checking it out.
*A copy of this book was kindly provided by the author in exchange for an honest review*